I was privy to meticulous
premonitions of self-harm
an arsenal of safety pins
stuck into forearms
fingertips scalded to
blistering on a three-cup Bialetti
drawing pin to the gums
disposable razor blade
lid of a tuna can
grind teeth until tasting
blood
and worse – of my death by
suicide
letters of terrible sadness
composed to the children,
the wife, the realization,
then,
that there was no one else
to write
hanged from the very tree I
lay
beneath for lunch
leaves against the blue sky
the grey sky
every lunch I’d see my
hanged body
and the leaves
the sky
face swollen
we’re crushed by this world
and by each other.
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